Uurgh. Having a melancholy day already and I've haven't even been awake for 3 hours yet.. That's the price I pay for skipping breakfast? No that's a lousy theory.
Things are going to pick up at work, this is the "calm before the storm" as my old boss puts it. The storm is set to begin really soon, within the week. Ironically, being so close to the finish line (the busy times at work), I am now in the mood to bugger it all and just go home to Sweden. As you can tell I am having a "square peg round hole" kind of day today. I think it started when walking from the train to the office this morning. A workmate asked me what I wanted to do once my internship is over. I had really no clue what to answer but as that doesn't fly very well in this kind of place I had to say something so I blathered on about me wanting to work with, uh, environmental issues. "Governmental or NGO-approach?" was the follow-up question. "Uuuh.. I want to work with the environment.. but not hug trees.. ". Not a stellar response.
So why am I letting this get to me today then? I've known for quite some time that I don't have any clear career goals besides being able to pay back my massive debts and loans. I have also known for quite some time that I'm not overly ambitious, and that I don't care about getting a bigger piece of the pie. In fact I sometimes despise the zero-sum division of the pie. I don't even care for pie. My point is that I know all this - and still it can ruin my Tuseday mood? Well maybe it's got to do with the weather. Maybe I miss my mother's cooking. Maybe I can't handle idleness as well as I thought I could. Perhaps I was cut out for something more creative than this. Possibly I need to eat more for breakfast.
I'm not being very productive here.
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Don't worry cousin - while you are bored in wonderful Rome, I am unemployed and in Sydney, trying to work out what to do with my life, when to fly back to London (delay as long as possible) and which beach to go swimming at today - no stuff that it's too hot and my sunburn hurts!
Anyway, when I do get back to Europe, I'd love to come and help relieve the boredom!
lots of hugs and happy new year :)
Could be worse,it was close but you didn't give a Miss Universe answer about ending hunger etc. Something to be proud about. You could be Miss Roma perhaps? /Preggy
Me Miss Roma? Their pageant is murder man, they have to sprint in stilettos and it involves running, jumping, climbing trees and putting on makeup while they're up there..
http://www.google.com/hostednews/ap/article/ALeqM5isjR8iopWyjk0utgVIClRKYqfnHgD95MPNE00
You could always apply for the best job in the world. Travelling around the islands in Queensland and writing a blog.
I heard the site has crashed from the number of applicants but they said they are still looking!
love
carmel
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